For Everything There Is A Season

I found the courage to wear red lipstick today. I know it may seem futile or small in comparison to so many more greater things to do today; however it is one of the items on my list of things to do before I die. A comparative list of fears per se. See I’m trying to grow myself up. I recently turned thirty-three (typed out to decrease the shock factor – purely for my benefit) and decided that it was time to do some of the things that I keep saying I’m gonna do and stop putting them off. Another item on my list is planting (flowers and gardening). My recent efforts at my vegetable garden have been thwarted only because I found a series of vole holes in my backyard. With that discovery I decided not to till my ground on last week. The thought and visual remembrance of the holes in the ground, not to mention the web search I did on those little varmits, still bring shivers to my body. However, I have decided that I will continue and moving forward will do container planting on my deck instead (So THERE! you voles….TAKE THAT!). So I have having weekly ‘therapy sessions’ as I call them, go and purchase flowers and vegetable plants. This seems to de-stress me…very soothing shopping. Investments that I know will give me something in return. It truly makes me happy. Last night I purchased some potted pansies. I got home, took them to my deck and cared for them, strategically placed them amongst the other ‘babies’, and went to bed. Woke up this morning to see the packets of flower seeds that I had purchased a month ago, still sitting in the place I put them after taking them out of the bag, still not planted and realized that this is an issue. I keep purchasing potted plants and such, when I have what I need at hand. I have marveled at the beauty of God’s handiwork, and although I realize that everything in life requires processing, I had decided to skip the very part, the most important. And that is creating a foundation, sewing seed(s), watering and nurturing, and in turn watching that seed turn into something just wonderful. God see’s us in this very way! He created us, planted us in the family we are supposed to be a part of, has given us the resources we need for life including the wonderful book called the Bible (B-asic, I-nstructions, B-efore, L-eaving, E-arth), and is ever watchful, waiting for our ‘blooms’ to show. However, blooming requires processing…this is the heart of everything. So often in our walk(s) with Christ we try and skip to receiving the anointing and gifts of God without realizing that there is a process to go through in order to get it. And trust, if you don’t want to go through the test and trials, then you don’t want the reward…because you won’t be ready for what comes with it. The test and trials works patience, and hope, and is what proves us.

All this to say that today, I will de-stress by picking up some more pots and potting soil to plant my seeds this afternoon. As God continues to work in my life, I have an expected end of what is to come of my little seeds. For He makes all things beatiful in His time! Amen


Ecclesiastes3:11 He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.


Romans 5:3-5 And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; And patience, experience; and experience, hope: And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.

Spring Time

It's April and flowers are in bloom, birds are singing, and the bees are buzzing. Everything around me is growing and I am too. Over the weekend, or the past week for that matter I had a 'thwarted epiphany' that I am an adult. I know.........(^_^)! I mean I'm sitting here thinking..."What was I thinking?" I don't know if it was the friendships that have gone up in smoke the past few weeks or the 'long lost lover' (he's married now I might add) making an absurd attempt to contact me. After literally not being able to get out of my spot in bed on one of my most favorite days of the year (Easter), I realized that I am too old to continue to let 'mess' continue on in my life.

MOVING FORWARD: Words imprinted on my mind...doesn't seem to be the popular choice these days. I have chosen to continue on and not let the negative realities of life get me down...so why couldn't I 'function' on Sunday? I had to sit back and access AGAIN what I mean to God, myself, my children, and lastly others (today a clear one, as to why 'others' is on the bottom rung...a muddled day 'they' would rest under God - don't get me wrong 'others' matter, but I can't continue to try and take care of others while my homelife is falling apart). I can no longer listen to people who haven't chosen to make a change in their life for their own good. Hey, I'm no one to point a finger, but will be the first to let you know it took me a long, long, long time to get where I am today. And God's knows I have a lot of learning to go. But I mean seriously? How many times can you let the same thing keep happening to you...and by your doing and no one else's. How long are we as women gonna sit around and bash men while what we really need to do is take a look in the mirror and pick ourselves to pieces to get to the root of the issue of these men 'taking advantage' of us.

I'm tired of the usual same 'ole, same 'ole. WAKE UP! True, life is hard...but can be easy if our steps are ordered. I'm tired of having to tell others to look to God and they agree and then in the same sentence talk about how they want to sin more. I am beginning to start 'dusting my feet off' per se. That means that I probably won't be talking to too many of the 'others' any longer. I yearn to be as a tree firmly planted by the Living Water, that I may grow. And keeping that vision in my head I realize that in order to grow, there must be pruning. Oh man does it hurt, but is so necessary. I will bless God through this process, because it is truly for His glory. Amen

Your unfailing love is better to me than life itself; how I praise you! Psalm 63:3 NLT

Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God's will. Then you will receive all that he has promised. Hebrews 10:36 NLT

They are like trees planted along the riverbank, bearing fruit each season. Their leaves never wither, and they prosper in all they do. Psalm 1:3 NLT